The Longest Summer Ever!

17 May 1977 - It was hard to say good bye to Jeff. I took the bus up to Aunt Buelah's in Missouri - it was a 4 hour bus ride that only takes 2 hours by car...it was a drag! It was fun to visit with my mom's extended family - they were all so nice & it was obvious that they really loved my mom. Aunt Buelah is such a neat lady! She seems really lonely since Uncle Boyd died last August. We stayed busy visiting folks & talking with them. I got lots of family history information, including some great photos!

21 May 1977 - When Granny Cowell got there with Uncle Charlie & Aunt Audrey, we headed home by way of Arkansas so we could attend Decoration Day & participate in the Holman/Wilkins Family get together. It was great to learn some more family history & connect the dots a little better!

28 July 1977 - When we finally got home, I worked 2 jobs - one at Payless Drugs & the other with Mom's drapery business. It's tough without a day off & I get depressed so easily. I hung out with friends at Pizzaville - Mom didn't like that much, she didn't think it was appropriate since I was engaged...she's probably right. I sure don't want to move to Memphis & it's no secret. What a sad day it'll be - my babies won't be Californians! I feel like I've made up my mind already that I'm not gonna like it. I hope I can give it a chance.

3 August 1977 - I feel like everyone is so negative about my wedding & I'm so scared about moving to Memphis! Is this normal to have such doubts? I feel like this is that "cold feet" people talk about or maybe the Devil is working on me, trying to keep me out of the temple? I got my physical & blood test yesterday...just another week & a half! I know I want a temple marriage - I hope & pray I'm doing the right thing! There's so much I don't understand! All these fears & uncertainties are normal - I just need to have faith that the Lord loves me & wants me to be happy.